I found this poem and I think it’s beautiful. It pretty much sums up a lot of my feelings. I want to dedicate it to Willie. I love you and I hope you like it.
The Feeling Inside
© By Ashley L. Charles
The first time we talked there was something about you
As we talked on the phone you had my full attention
I lingered on your voice hoping you would say those five words
And when you did I was so overwhelmed I missed it
The next day when I got to hang out with you was more than I ever expected
When I looked into your eyes I knew there was nowhere else I wanted to be
Lying in your arms I realized that I might never get the chance to feel this way again
So I decided that if being with you was a risk then I was willing to take it
After I left that night so many thoughts ran through my head
I wondered if you were feeling exactly the same way I was
I wanted to know what it was that was going on inside your head
I was hoping that what I was feeling was more than just butterflies in my stomach
I spent the whole night wondering what would happen next
I realized that nothing was like I ever expected it to be
Even though I had put up a wall to keep all those others on the outside
You found the one little crack and seemed to work your way inside
Once I figured out what was truly going on inside my heart
There were so many things that I wanted to say to you
I wanted to let you know how much you truly meant to me
I wanted to tell you that I wasn’t sure if I could make it without you
But at first I just couldn’t find the words to say exactly how I feel
I was afraid to let you know that you had found a way inside
I was worried that if I let you know how I felt you wouldn’t feel the same way
But I took a risk and let you know how much you truly meant to me
Now that you know how I feel I’m so scared that you’ll just fade away
But no matter what happens I want you to know something
I need you to know that I would never trade you for anything in the world
I would take a thousand painful moments just to spend the rest of my life with you
