Isn’t it interesting how this time of year leaves almost everyone tired and looking forward to the holidays. Everywhere I see people are moaning and grumpy. It seems every day is a bad day.
I am tired and my days are full but I am not wishing the time away. Or maybe I am. I am looking forward to things slowing down a little. I do actually enjoy being busy, having something to do. For the last week to ten days I have been feeling super tired and then 3 days ago my throat started burning. Yesterday my nose. I guess all signs point to me getting a bit sick. The timing couldn’t be worse. Well, I am going to kick its butt so that it doesn’t get worse than it has to.
In exactly one week (31 october) I am writing my first exam. Some times I feel so calm about it and other times I am completely freaking out. I think it is the unknown that scares me. I have not written an exam of any kind in over 10 years. I have no idea where, how, what will happen. I did not even know how the exam paper layout will be. The census lady that came happens to be doing the same degree and she was kind enough to bring me some old exam papers. I can’t explain how much that has helped me to calm down. Just knowing what it will *look* like has helped. I know it doesn’t make sense but I like knowing and planning. I am not sure when that happened but it is what it is. 😀
Speaking of census. The lady popped in one morning and it took her all of 15 minutes to get through it all. I actually feel quite bad for them. They are having such a hard time getting people to do their bit. People are refusing to do it. People pretend they are not home. Shame.
The Teen Mom Support Group KZN is going very well. Of course I always wish that things were better but nonetheless things are going really well. I would love a bit more exposure. It seems that is the hardest of all. Getting the word out is harder than I thought it would be. So if anyone out there has any connection or feel like doing some PR for us you are more than welcome 😉
My mind has been going again with things that shouldn’t be there. In the last year I have been hopeful but also been able keep my mind busy and occupied. That has helped but lately it is all coming back. I still want to be hopeful. A year has gone by and I am still in the same place. It feels like nothing has changed. Some days it feels like all that has changed is my desire and longing. I have so much to be thankful for but the heart wants what the heart wants. That alone makes me angry / sad. I don’t know if it will ever be me and I don’t know if that will ever be ok for me if it doesn’t happen.
So, for the next week there will be no The Sims 3, no shows (except in bed), no knitting. Studying only. Then after the Social Welfare Law exam on the 31st it’s all systems go for Psychology on the 10th. In between those two the in-laws are coming into town for almost 2 weeks. I am sure we will see them once or twice. The night of the 10th we are taking them to Barnyard Theatre to watch Big Top Rock. Then they are spending the weekend with us even though I have to do some studying. It’s downhill from there to the Anthropology exam on the 17th. Then it is all over till next year 🙂 I might be scarce but I will be around.